Thursday, July 2, 2009

The Hardest Letter

How do you thank some one for saving your life?

That is the question I have asked myself hundreds of times in the last five months.  I have tried dozens of times to put it into words on paper.  Each time though, it never seemed right.

Later today, I will be going to Lifelink for my final follow-up for my transplant.  After today, check ups should less and less frequent basis.  The transplant center suggests that recipients write a letter to the donor family expressing my gratitude.  I have sat down and tried to write this letter many times, but could never get the word just right.  There is a chance that the family will never even read the letter.  It will be up to them whether or not they want to read it.  Still, I want my letter to be perfect.

I can only imagine the difficult choice that this family had to make back in January.  I am sure that this letter will bring back much of that pain and sorrow.  What I want to do, even if it is a small way, is ease some of that pain.  I want to convey how thankful not only me, but all my friends and family are that they have given me this gift of life.  I want them to know that I am trying to live my life in a way to supply hope and inspiration to others.  I hope that they can find some solace in the fact that I am living a full and meaningful life.  I want them to know that the memory of their family member will forever live on in me.

Now if I can only put that into words.




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