The Frustration Builds

As the waiting continues to drag on, my frustration begins to build as well. The past few days have nearly been the tipping point. Monday we went back to Lifelink for a scheduled appointment that we never thought we would make. During the appointment, we were told that I am still at the top of the list. We also found out that since I have been number 1 on the list, they have done 5 liver transplants. Yes, that is right. Five people have been transplanted while I have been waiting at the top of the list. The reason? I am too damn skinny. Due to my weight, they can transplant me with a liver from a donor close to my size. apparently the only people dying weight 200 pounds. That is frustrating.

Early this morning my cell phone rang and Lifelink came up on the caller ID. I was just there yesterday and I couldn't think of a good reason they would be calling at that time of the day considering they just saw me. I picked up the phone almost certain that it was the call. A answered with my heart racing. All they did was ask me when I was getting my blood drawn again. That is frustrating.

On top of all this, my wife and I had to cancel a trip to the Bahamas this week because of the transplant. We have spent 2 previous New Years in Grand Bahama and had an incredible time on both trips. Months ago we had made reservations for the same hotel right across the street from the square where the New Years Eve celebration takes place. So not only am I practically on bed rest in my house, but I should be laying in a hammock on the beach in Grand Bahama. That is frustrating.

The hoping and praying continues on an almost hourly basis. And yet the the frustration continues to build all the same. Patience and faith have always been strengths of mine. At this time however, both of them are beginning to running thin.