Hard to Hold Back

I am approaching the time in which I am getting closer and closer to making a "full" recovery.  Since I am not there yet, I am finding it harder and harder to hold back.  I am not to the point yet that I can physically do all the things that I am used to.  I am close, which makes it that much harder.  

It seems as though I have the energy to do more, but my strength and mobility are still limited.  The limitation are self imposed though.  They are there more out of fear then anything else.  I still have two very large scars on my stomach that look healed from the outside, but I know they may not be fully healed inside.  This is what is holding me back.

I have been up before work everyday this week to go to the Y to do a light workout on the treadmill, and then go on a 5-6 mile bike ride when I get home from work.  Despite that, at around 8:00 at night, I still feel like I could go do another workout.  That is, until about 10:00 when I hit the couch and am out like a light.

Two more weeks will mark the 3 month point of my recovery.  At that time, I think I will comfortable enough to begin to lift some of the restrictions I have.  I can't wait.