The Post That I have been Waiting for

This is what I have been waiting for.  Beyond the pain subsiding, beyond my numbers going down, beyond getting back to my normal life, this is what I have been waiting for.  My eyes are white again.  Seems simple I know, but for almost 8 months, my eyes have not been white.  They slowly turned from slightly yellow to, in the words of Sarah, "highlighter yellow".  Now I feel comfortable saying that the yellow is gone.  I can look into the mirror and not see a reminder of the fact that I was dying starring back at me.

Of all the side effects that I had to face, this was the worst.  No it did not hurt, or physically effect be like the fatigue, but it was a constant reminder of  my disease.  There were some memorable moments though.  There was the check out guy at a fast food restaurant who asked my how I made my eyes yellow like that and said that it looked "cool".  There were the usual and always entertaining comments and comparisons about my eyes from my sister-in-law.  (The most recent one being that they look like I took white out to them).

While my eyes got more and more yellow, it became harder and harder to hide it.  Whenever I was in public I constantly felt that people were starring at me and judging me based on my eyes.  I spent a lot of time looking at the ground.  

Now when I look into the mirror, I smile.  At least once a day, my wife comments on how white my eyes look.  It is a a good feeling.  A really good feeling.  This is more then just another step in getting back to normal.  This gives me back my life.